Robin Williams' widow, Susan, opens up in an emotional interview -- her first since the comedian's death -- about the loss of her husband and how she is healing.
"[The pain]…just all of it will never go. It's the best love I ever dreamed of," Susan told ABC News when asked if time has eased her pain.
The celebrated actor and comedian committed suicide on August 11, 2014. A coroner’s report said Robin had Lewy Body Dementia, a common but difficult to diagnose condition that may have contributed to his decision to commit suicide.
Susan, who spoke about Robin's struggle with sobriety and depression, wanted his fans and friends to know that those struggles were his alone to bear.
"I know we did everything we could," she explained. "People...would say to me, ‘God, I wish I had done something more for him. If only I had called him.' And I'm thinking, ‘No one could have done anything more for Robin,' I just want everyone to know that. Nobody -- no one-- everyone did the very best they could."
"This disease is like a sea monster with 50 tentacles of symptoms that show when they want," Susan continued. "It's chemical warfare in the brain. And we can't find it until someone dies definitively. There is no cure."
Asked whether the actor had ever said he didn’t want to live anymore, Williams responded: "No. Not even -- no. No."
"I mean, he was sick and tired of what was going on, absolutely...and when he got the Parkinson's diagnosis, you know, I mean, in one sense, it was like this is it. ...We've been chasing something, now we found it," she said. "And we felt the sense of release and relief. But also, like, 'Oh my God, what does this mean?'"
"[The pain]…just all of it will never go. It's the best love I ever dreamed of," Susan told ABC News when asked if time has eased her pain.
The celebrated actor and comedian committed suicide on August 11, 2014. A coroner’s report said Robin had Lewy Body Dementia, a common but difficult to diagnose condition that may have contributed to his decision to commit suicide.
Susan, who spoke about Robin's struggle with sobriety and depression, wanted his fans and friends to know that those struggles were his alone to bear.
"I know we did everything we could," she explained. "People...would say to me, ‘God, I wish I had done something more for him. If only I had called him.' And I'm thinking, ‘No one could have done anything more for Robin,' I just want everyone to know that. Nobody -- no one-- everyone did the very best they could."
"This disease is like a sea monster with 50 tentacles of symptoms that show when they want," Susan continued. "It's chemical warfare in the brain. And we can't find it until someone dies definitively. There is no cure."
Asked whether the actor had ever said he didn’t want to live anymore, Williams responded: "No. Not even -- no. No."
"I mean, he was sick and tired of what was going on, absolutely...and when he got the Parkinson's diagnosis, you know, I mean, in one sense, it was like this is it. ...We've been chasing something, now we found it," she said. "And we felt the sense of release and relief. But also, like, 'Oh my God, what does this mean?'"
Will Smith marked his daughter Willow Smith's 15th birthday on Saturday with a touching Facebook message for the pop star and aspiring model.
Will posted a photo of himself carrying Willow as a young girl. "Happy Birthday, my Bean. 15 years old today!!" he wrote. "When you were born it took about 2 seconds to realize that I was willing to die for you. Thank you for correcting my heart – and teaching me how to love without constriction or condition."
Willow recently landed a modeling contract with the agency that represents models like Kendall Jenner.
Will posted a photo of himself carrying Willow as a young girl. "Happy Birthday, my Bean. 15 years old today!!" he wrote. "When you were born it took about 2 seconds to realize that I was willing to die for you. Thank you for correcting my heart – and teaching me how to love without constriction or condition."
Willow recently landed a modeling contract with the agency that represents models like Kendall Jenner.
Star Trek has a new mission planned... for digital TV.
CBS has announced it will launch a "totally new" Star Trek series in 2017 -- blasting off with the first episode airing on the CBS Television Network, before subsequent first-run episodes move exclusively to CBS All Access, the network's digital subscription video on-demand streaming service.
Alex Kurtzman, who co-wrote and produced the 2009 and 2013 Star Trek movies, will oversee the series, which promises "new characters seeking imaginative new worlds and new civilizations, while exploring the dramatic contemporary themes that have been a signature of the franchise since its inception in 1966."
CBS has announced it will launch a "totally new" Star Trek series in 2017 -- blasting off with the first episode airing on the CBS Television Network, before subsequent first-run episodes move exclusively to CBS All Access, the network's digital subscription video on-demand streaming service.
Alex Kurtzman, who co-wrote and produced the 2009 and 2013 Star Trek movies, will oversee the series, which promises "new characters seeking imaginative new worlds and new civilizations, while exploring the dramatic contemporary themes that have been a signature of the franchise since its inception in 1966."
Remember the outcry over the killing of Cecil the Lion? Miley Cyrus wants you to -- and she's asking for your help in keeping it from happening again.
Miley hit up Instagram with an angry rant about so-called "canned hunting" of tame animals in Africa. Under a photo of two adorable lion cubs, she wrote about how newborn lions are taken from their mothers, raised by humans to be tame and displayed to tourists as part of conservation efforts.
But when they grow up, she writes, "the chosen lions are taken into a different enclosure where they are starved and drugged to make them easier targets. The lion handlers and armed tourists then enter the enclosure in trucks. The starving lions recognize their handlers and often head toward the truck hoping for food, but are met instead with a barrage of bullets."
The practice is not illegal, but Miley is working to get it outlawed.
Miley hit up Instagram with an angry rant about so-called "canned hunting" of tame animals in Africa. Under a photo of two adorable lion cubs, she wrote about how newborn lions are taken from their mothers, raised by humans to be tame and displayed to tourists as part of conservation efforts.
But when they grow up, she writes, "the chosen lions are taken into a different enclosure where they are starved and drugged to make them easier targets. The lion handlers and armed tourists then enter the enclosure in trucks. The starving lions recognize their handlers and often head toward the truck hoping for food, but are met instead with a barrage of bullets."
The practice is not illegal, but Miley is working to get it outlawed.